As the candles yawned
My world grew darker
'Til barely a detail remained.
Parchment and smoke
Through distant chimes
Moths carried by the breeze.
Her finger to my lips
I am stilled in an instant
I sip, and am numbed
From here the path winds backwards.
At first I see my entering
And then steps in reverse
Descent where I had fallen.
Familiar, all is skewed
And yet I cannot reflect
Beyond my eyelids, I have died
Yet I collapse into youth.
Familiar, all is frayed
And yet I cannot abide
Beyond my eyelids, I have died.
Days are merging quickly now
Into years that spiral from my chest
They pass but leave no mark.
I swallow forgotten words
To gain what was lost
And lost what was gained
Until neither is real
Behind my head, her hands hold no weight.
I have reached a beginning
But somehow I do not stop
I fall through the first moment
To find that there is more.
As light cascades
Through the hole my body has torn
Already, it is closing.