My last smile was a while ago, I can show you my fears and how wild I go I got tattooed tears on my mind, I know that they're really my favorite Everything's changing, not just to the scene but the heartbreak Hole in my chest, can't see, but it's heart shaped, baby Pour paint in a champagne glass, it's built for my feelings Cause I know I won't last without you I'm not okay, these kids are screaming, I just thought you needed to know I'm not okay, don't you worry, I got everything in control I'm not okay, I'm nervous, struggling to be perfect And that's okay, I'm hurting, I finally got the nerve to say I'm not okay Ten miles down a winding road, thin roof raindrops to remind me of you Fourteen carats of the gold, teardrops in my coffee, look at what you cost me I will leave it all in a heartbeat, found the letter that you left in the car seat I'ma set fire to the whole thing, but it won't do much cause I want it all I'm not okay, these kids are screaming, I just thought you needed to know I'm not okay, don't you worry, I got everything in control I'm not okay, I'm nervous, struggling to be perfect And that's okay, I'm hurting, I finally got the nerve to say I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay, these kids are screaming, I just thought you needed to know I'm not okay, don't you worry, I got everything in control I'm not okay, I'm nervous, struggling to be perfect And that's okay, I'm hurting, I finally got the nerve to say